The Reluctant Spy Talks

I still cannot imagine the world you lived in, and the hell I added to it by misinterpreting the situation;  by disbelieving in reality...   I did not know enough about the world operates to do other than I did.   My attempts to be righteous are part of why my legend grew among the underground armies, like when I had them burn the blood money made God knows how...  I had written about pirating software and suddenly the world began to raise money by pointing guns.  I did not want it.  I was selfish, half mad, or I would have done something good with that money... money I had begun by then to think did not exist,  I certainly had seen no benefits from my involvement, only a weird fame on the tv that did not equate into my life.  I asked for counsel and was given none because I was just a puppet, someone they were using, disposable as the next guy. They give me two sentences about going to classes and I AM TOO MORTIFIED to continue thin...

I have put out four IN THE TEN YEARS SINCE. In that time I have lived through too many around me dying without my hearing their screams, people I never met and did not know enough to miss.  The truth seemed like lies.  When they finally told me that the revolution I threw on the world out of nowhere, took off...  that the religion they wanted had also taken off, and they were not prepared for both... and the country had fallen apart.   They waited for me to lead an army I believed were all in my head, made up for a campaign that I never expected to have the impact .... they brainwashed me and kept me crazed on drugs.  Used me.   Too many had reason to hate me for decisions I made without thought, on the spur of the moment.  I do not know why I did much of what I did, acted on inspiration at first.   Now inspiration has become one of the casualties in this war, along with my comedy, and painting and drawing... never that good at ...

the east has my left hand chained the west has my right hand chained both pulling I am hanging in the middle over a ravine with hundreds of feet of drop ALL eyes are on ME as they expect to see a burst into meat and bone and blood I effortlessly pull them both forward a few inches Not wanting anyone to fall into the abyss at all The producers of the game are NOT PLEASED I know of parrots and zebras and cougars and panthers and bears and ducks dividing and conquering the populous into smaller and smaller groups/easily manageable I wanted them all to accept new terms my terms the way to the truth and freedom and LIFE I knew I would have to harden to do what I have done I knew I would not allow my moral compass to be disobeyed that I walked the path of God or I left it No matter the cost always no matter the material cost the needs of the many make money grubbing seem the biggest waste of time beings are as content with twenty dollar wines as million dollar wi...

One time I demanded ten for one for Royal blood.  I was making a bloody demand to stop all war.  They told me they were killing their best breeding stock....  Robert Downey Jr. RIPPING UP A HAMSTER as Jodie Foster and Mel Gibson sat in the front row.  They had to communicate with me primarily through tv.   Chicago was loaded with cameras that followed me everywhere, the promise from those who said they were watching the son of God, or the New King, or whatever... a Mafioso for awhile, though we look at people differently, we have hopefully made peace.  Just Peace, or the best we can get without provoking a fight we cannot win, that will only distract us from the real mission, bringing down the uber elite and using their money to bring wealth to everyone on the planet... or enough, at least, to love decent, loving lives of people/ Disney or someone, not sure who,  murdered people who were associated with me, and I wanted revenge, and mostly, to s...

I do not even know what A NAZI is.  Never had a fascination with them, etc...  Still do not.   I understand much better now.  I am not going to ever prove to be a Nazi, as much as my criticism of Israel or whatever seems to show me having such a proclivity.  I wish Jews who feel the same as Nazi's about certain policies could fight shoulder to shoulder, without supremacism or their clash of ideas or pasts having one dam thing to do with the fight.   I suppose I would be criticizing neo Nazi's on my sites all the time, too, if I did not think there were plenty people around doing that, and too many afraid of Israel to speak up.   I simply have my beliefs, and yours are yours,  mine are mine.  We do not have to agree to know that a job we can only get done by working together requires we work together.   I made a statement to this effect, in an insensitive way, sarah silverman takes offense, I try to explain myself...