The Reluctant Spy Talks

I think a lot about free-will, and always have.  Studies in philosophy, particularly feminist philosophy, taught me the value of not allowing the dominant, patriarchal, dog eat dog capitalist mind-set to devour me.   The view of women throughout history taught me about repression.   To this day all over the world oppression continues.  OFTEN CLOAKED by religion, this is simply ABUSE in other countries when it happens.  And it does, and most often the women drop the charges, forgive the men. How could I end up the head of a religion, which some aspects were, at least, involved in behavior that seems cult like to me, though... intelligence only gave me the vaguest NEED TO KNOW information, because they knew I was not going to go along with them...    I heard about Acolytes who watched me on the web all the time.  Others underground evidently doing the same thing.  I could not feel more sorrow over your suffering.  KNOW THIS....

I cannot afford to do so.   I will never stop being involved as long as there is a chance, and as long as I am alive, I am winning, despite appearances, as the past has proven before that this prophesy is, and it has proven true too many times for me to want to know...  I should not say I am winning.  The future is what I fight for, what I take orders from more than man -- science before politics would help this world, as long a healthy  dose of morality is applied. I used to invite triggers, because I was looking for truths....  and I know where to find a few, and sometimes I feel like I can take it, sometimes not.  BUSHWICK, a movie I just put on, reminds of me of when they EVACUATED NEW YORK, which was when we attacked.    I do not know the details but they do put in movies and tv more truth than people would want to know..,  they want their spin put on things, I guess. I have gone off facebook, for these blogs, losing God knows...