PTSD control means getting rid of triggers

I cannot afford to do so.   I will never stop being involved as long as there is a chance, and as long as I am alive, I am winning, despite appearances, as the past has proven before that this prophesy is, and it has proven true too many times for me to want to know... 

I should not say I am winning.  The future is what I fight for, what I take orders from more than man -- science before politics would help this world, as long a healthy  dose of morality is applied.

I used to invite triggers, because I was looking for truths....  and I know where to find a few, and sometimes I feel like I can take it, sometimes not.  BUSHWICK, a movie I just put on, reminds of me of when they EVACUATED NEW YORK, which was when we attacked.    I do not know the details but they do put in movies and tv more truth than people would want to know..,  they want their spin put on things, I guess.

I have gone off facebook, for these blogs, losing God knows how many readers.  I know now that the story I could tell the public, and they deserve to know, is done.  The rest will be a surprise.  Surprise them, forget about earning their hearts and minds.  Appeal to their better angels, if they will not listen send them back into a baby that will hopefully be raised in a system that will not make them killers..

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