The Reluctant Spy Talks

He blamed me.  Said I was dangerous as hell sure, but I was not deep enough to be a leader, that the slightest criticism got them killed, or something.  HE USED THE TERM, MY FRIENDS WERE TAKEN TO THE WOODS.  Which I was seeing so much death around me and associations with a certain group being taken into the woods, and killed.  Or however they were doing it then, and these people were methodical in their killing, using hospitals and...  I cannot go into what else, that is far enough, and vague enough, to protect and revel.  Which has to be done in this blog. I thought at the time, and told him, WELL, TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS ALL GOING ON... DO NOT JUST GET PISSED AT ME... Now that I understand better what they were the up to the less I believe they should have expected knowing decisions from me on the scant bit of what was going on the revealed to me.   I know a lot now, even how to defeat you.  I may fight fire with fire and in this case that m...

I saw and heard many things that I spoke to no one about except my wife, because they simply sounded too crazy, because in my isolation I thought few knew what was being done to me, though I did not know how that was possible.  Of course it was not.  They had been watching me along, making me this world famous guy whose irresponsible webcasts were causing havoc across the world, though as part of a Plan that had been in the works for over fifty years...   as I felt like odd man out, the guy who did not understand the language being spoken to me.   I did not realize for instance that  Blue meant cops, and in this town they are Catholics.   I knew the Catholics were involved in the brain washing I had,  07, when this started and was very threatening, saying we would kill all the Catholics in this town if that was what it took for me to get out of town.... though I had a dream in my twenties of ending up in a Catholic Church in Chicago as a cloud came thr...

Here are the basics.  I lived a normal life, of an exceedingly intelligent person, got addicted to going to university at twenty four and kept going for five majors for over a decade, preparing to write novels, after showing some talent in this area.  I did not know my grandfather was this big spy, or head of this Scottish organization and my mother was recruited by the communists, to fight them... she is left wing, and the Scottish are right wing.. basically.   In the end, after many top secret adventures centered on using me as Jesus returning, in OPERATION BLUEBEAM, to the point that they told folks  I had grown wings, and I was in a hospital for a year getting radiation, after two things had been removed from my back...  far from the problem they said I actually had.  Tumors taken out, is how it was explained to me, to others where the wings were taken out.   I did not know who believed what or why after being brainwashed, I WAS SURPRISED there is ...

I used to hear murderers say, OH, anybody in the right situation is a murderer.' I do not believe that, but I do believe we can be killers. The original commandment in the bible was though shall not murder. Killing is different. I was threatened with being sold into sexual slavery, getting messages like them finding kids with the same last name as mine, and chopping them into little pieces, to get messages thru the news.   That the whole fuckin media and star system are in on this would blow peoples mind. I am now more surprised by people who know about the world of intelligence, the witting, who actually see behind the veil, than are ignorant of it... because I had no clue when they drafted me what that world was like. I became monstrous... to the point of once ... during a war that was using child soldiers none the less, that my soldiers were holy and if I caught them I would kill ten of their children for every one of mine that died.  A lot of these kids had pa...