To the sceptics among you... I was once like you.

My LAST reply EVER for those with a cowardly disbelief of my life in the world of THE INTELLIGENCE AGENCIES AND THE ELITE.... for the last ten years, when despite being told to write nothing except children's books by the CIA, I wrote four books and rose in the ranks of those who fought them once.

I am in chronic pain, and have been over twenty five years, and ALWAYS saw a psychiatrist because of that, and I saw her all during this, and after, and NEVER was there any suggestion of my being mentally ill, beyond depression and anxiety, the depression is a reaction the brain has to pain, and I barely take any... very low dose.

The anxiety.... well, after what I have been thru, if you were not effected, you are officially psychotic, which if I was I would be a millionaire movie maker right now, instead of shunned by the arts community for crimes I didn't do... sigh. I do not want any of those things now that I know the price you pay.

I will die with my integrity intact. My morals followed in the face of death, over and over... few have been tested like I have, and I stood up to the most powerful people in the world and said FUCK YOU... I follow Justice, not your fucking orders.... and live to fight again and again... with more blood dripping from my hands than I feel like I can bear some days.
T

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