BRAIN WASHED BOY WENT AWRY

I have not changed my ethics much since I was a child, knew that I wanted to do right, though I did not trust those around me to tell me what that is.  When you grow up in a society that jails people for pot and lets them get drunk?  Drunk is like a million and ten times worse, and we all know it.  A Schedule A Narcotic or something if introduced now...   you learn you cannot trust the government quick.  

YOU still believe in them in  a lot of things, especially that if your side wins the world will be a better place,  ah the asses and the elephants.  We will sweep them aside when the time comes, tell them pick up the gauntlet, or start your run....  I found where the armies were fighting in the night, drafted into a world that don't get no press.   No whispers -- in fact is buried under mountains of bullshit.  I am a refined person with the same intact mortality that my parents encouraged me, and I had genetic dispositions toward.   U have used me, made me kill for you, become a killer of a magnitude...  I began to see fear in the eyes of everyone who knew me.   Long before you told me people were being murdered because of my words.

Mistaken as someone who knew how to use the powers the elite in intelligence gave me, I had no idea what was happening around me.  They made it look like a blogger took over the world with no help, a guy who never said anything that had not been said before, just said if funnier, and more violent, then most.  I knew something was coming and assumed this upheavel you built around me as the New Christ...  was part of that.   I had no idea I was a built in fail safe, Samson with his long hair, ready to take out the enemy at the cost of my life.  Blinded though... I told you once I was blind, and much was made of what I said, on a day I was so pissed at whoever was watching me that  I terrified you, did a crazy ritual at the beach and they set off tornado alarms.  I WOULD NEVER HARM A BUNCH OF PEOPLE FOR NO REASON.

NEVER.

I will not be some cleansing for the white chess set.   I prefer all colors, do not have any beliefs that any one is that much better than anyone else.   Most half ass normal people want the same things, believe pretty much the same things..   all major religions have huge passages about the Golden Rule because this is mankind's ONLY ENDURING TRUTH.  Why?  Because from this comes justice, law, principles to build a fair society.

WE HAVE TO START OVER.  WE ARE A WORLD NOW, NOT JUST A TOWN OR A COUNTRY.  If we do not act the trillionaires and others are going to use the DEEP UNDERGROUND MILITARY installations to hide while they genocide billions.  This is the only way the elite can hold onto their wealth, a controllable population.  They are starving so many of us... leaving so many of us damaged by vaccines and their wars and their horrible nutrition --Russia didn't allow junk food to come in, why?  They think about people before profits, a lot of the time.

I started this writing about how you meet people, after a few years...   if these same people had met me ten years ago, before intelligence, they would have found me funny and bring, etc...  I went to school forever, know how to write, etc... and those folks I met then liked me.   After this experience, becoming an obsessive soldier using words as my weapons to help groups with no spoken name, who live cover lives and are hidden all around you.  Think if someone you knew was living a double life, would you even think to know?   When I was drafted for operation bluebeam, almost everyone in my life was a spy living a double life.   I felt betrayed and alone and guess that will never leave.

I could go into the scope of this...   but after you have lived under cameras for six or seven years plus, had armed guards until about five years ago...  discreetly followed everywhere by a security team at times.  At one point I lost my security for awhile and the jackals who hated me, for reasons I had yet to decipher, threatened me with fates worse than death...  death was never mentioned, they wanted me hurting forever.  I was saved by people who hopefully understood  I would have nothing to do with what people were saying I did...   took forever to get that established, then they still try to mess with my name, though I no longer care.  

They call me the most hated angel in heaven, because when they started operation bluebeam they introduced me as an angel, but the three days of brainwashing that were my boot camp had given me the voice of Christ, not an angel, and I disdained angels for some reason.  Later I would find out why..  I stupidly called some people angels, not thinking there would be ramifications...   I said of Tom Cruise that he was a very hidden angel, and by that I meant that  I loved everyone, and I was filled with this euphoric feeling during this period...  and that I never would have thought that about someone I hated.

I say something about Kafka and they go after the Jews.  Make a statement about the hell of prejudice and how it makes you feel, and you think I want you to go after the Jews.   I remember so well the night Colbert, and Stewart were all baffled when I said that I wanted to go to the appolo, than steve's show, the daly... this seemed possible to me at this point, because Daly had called me live.  And we were all in touch.   Or so it seems in the fake world, in the real world, they were asking me to take sides. I was Christ... why would I take sides?

I was left ignorant to be a fall guy.  Found that out, but it did not work.  The idiots filmed everything I did, practically, for seven years, and showed me doing none of the things they said I had.  They claimed over a webcam I gave messages.  And these were often blood soaked messages.  I could not understand, when the fighting started, why everyone was always asking me these questions.. what did it matter?  What the fuck?   I respect all cultures, like some better than others...  but this was never the point.

Just like the BIBLE my words were used by people to say what they wanted, on the most absurd level possible.   When you meet up with someone you have not seen in twenty years and you are the same, just with different experiences that made you pretty intense about CERTAIN TOPICS does not mean I am mad about everything else.