americans are in a state of appeasement with a hostile force that is in charge of our government, and the western world
THERE IS A CALL TO ARMS
until your society is JUST
THERE SHOULD BE NO PEACE
appeasement is what the masses offer the elite
YOU CAN REPRESS THE NOTION
though know there must be some among you
who find fronts to fight the enemy
THE ENEMY IS THE PRESENT CORPORATE AND WALL STREET ENRICHING
RULERS
FROM THE WHITE HOUSE TO THE BOARDROOMS
there is nothing worse than doing nothing
as the masses
are robbed
by the oligarchy
as they fight over this politician or that
when they all do the same thing,
war,
and enrich
the richest of rich
the vampires of the military industrial complex
TRADE THE BLOOD OF THE YOUNG
FOR BIG STACKS OF GREEN ONES
slave keepers
CHAINING those around them
with two hundred million dollar bonuses...
EVERY DAY YOU APPEASE THE ENEMY
THE MORE YOU BECOME GERMANS
IGNORING THE FIGHT AGAINST THE NAZI'S
you become the ones
who went along oblivious of the atrocities of their government
I have seen them in my work,
college girls beaten to death on a golf course here in town
because they attended a peace march
to stop the protests of 07 they killed all the leaders or drove them underground
history shows they ended... just not how it was done
cutting off arms of computer hackers who helped the cause
and all the secrets that will never enter the popular lexicon
with enough context
to make sense to those who are not involved
THE PEACE MOVEMENT
I wanted to start became the praising of soldiers
who I wanted to bring home with my efforts
became after the three forgotten days
of CLASSIC BRAINWASHING AND ending up tossed in a psych ward
something wrong that was easily recognized by my friends
off
I felt like one does after a brain washing
the sensation that I did not know who I was
but I was not the person who I THOUTH I WAS
AND I FOUND ANOTHER VOICE
INSIDE OF ME... CHRIST
in my poetry more than my life
those behind the project
figured I would play the role of a deity
for pleasure and prophet
I felt like they tried to make a fake CHRIST and GOD
always ironic
had placed the real thing at the head of their made up religion
to sabotage their plans to use the son as an EVIL ICON
AS WAS DONE
MUCH as I begged from the beginning that you
did NOT make a fake idol out of me
yet you did
you took a gift from God who brought peace and love to the planet
and tried to force him onto a cross
to take away all your sins
I did not know enough to lead the groups I had found under the rocks
and boulders where I found the true leaders of the world
hiding from the light of day/knowing that if the world knew they existed
how deadly to us all
they would be squashed under black boots in a day
their guards would turn on them
became a vanguard of the revolution
as has happened before when militaries have switched leaders
I fought in a war where we sent armed soldiers to do atrocities of which no human
may ever speak of again because of loyalty oath and pure shame and the way there are no heroes
in our war
there are no winners or losers
only survivors of the latest battle
none of the sides have a clear picture how to unite under one leader
split apart they are useless in solving the worlds problems
a one world order would be controlled by the heartless psychopaths of politics
at this point and they cannot be trusted with the power they have
need less ... not more
When they declared me Christ --
when the voice of the deity was the only true one I knew anymore
I was changed irreparably from the stoner comedy writer who was at best agnostic
at worst out right hateful of religion
mystical things were to happen to me
making believers of those watching me,
expecting the magical to happen to me
after I am told I began to grow wings at five
and they did keep me in the hospital for a year at five
when I had reoccurring dreams over and over of flying
and driving... I ended up a professional driver
in the hospital they treated me in ways my disease is not treated by giving me radiation
and I have these two scars
that are no where near my problem at the bottom of my spine\
explained away as tumors\
they did not want me to know what happened
Either they were setting me up for the mission or the miraculous was happening
is still hard for me tell
so many died believing I am a savior that to denounce myself
or say that I never believed what I do
will never happen
john cusack came on the radio as the religion began to grow strong around me
and violent
said that everyone had to admit
at least on camera
that they were not God's
They were filming me and spying on me still
Driving me crazy
I used to do things before the camera hoping to keep them too afraid to attack me
warn them of the destruction I would reign down on them
with no hesitation
should the mission
require
a reminder on these shores of the hell of war/the hell of being a refugee
bringing peace to the USA will require fighting those who THINK THEY NEED WAR
for the economy, or just their bonuses and the resultant political contributions
that would go to one or the other politician -- whichever one will play ball;
the sum of modern politics in a way
the sum of life in a way
play ball or forget about being in the game at all
I fought his and still do
rather die standing than on my knees
They were using operation blue beam
a Christ who takes over the world with a new way of living
a courage where death became no deterrent to a mission
I set off events I could not have imagined
as those around me refused to send me humans who could communicate
with me face to face
I wanted that so bad
I wrote also I did not want that
and none of them would tell me of the mayhem I was causing
as words of Christ were taken fundamentally
stories as scripture and secret orders
I was used
they wanted you and I to believe we could change this world
instead we learned that the real powers refuse to be challenged
I confused people
thinking they were here to please God walking the planet
when I am here to please them... to be a servant, not served
I heard the songs about my arrival
stirring my heart as they referred
to my preaching
mourning as they told me they had picked up swords
at times I would not have had them do...
Though I forgive them and pray they live long enough
to feel redeemed for their actions
Long into the war, when they understood I HAD no idea
the extent of the relevance of my words to so many
I felt I was being put in some kind of hell
in poverty
unable to become a paid writer
though my fame is great
because they hate me for deaths blamed on Christ Himself
the one who fought at every turn
to explain the Jewish Psalms was a warriors book
the God of War
I can join no religion
though I am sure I would find some form
of Jewish that fit my beliefs
I would never hate someone for their religion
the individual's actions is more important than any relationship to race,
religion, gender . . .
and the only scientifically acceptable means of viewing a person,
let alone ethically.
Few like to be stereotyped with others of their religion or race,
except during periods of war, when the enemy is always objectified; friendly neighbors suddenly go to war when their religion demands'
a travesty before science and God.
The elite understands this enough to start a culling process from all races
others want to eliminate other races almost entirely
though they are too sophisticated to believe mere race or geography of birth
means nearly as much as bloodlines and intelligence and looks
viable seeds for a better humanity
without all the mere feeders as they cause the great masses
I worked on the plans to kill seven billion people
I had a lot of kills by then... mass graves all over the states
people who would disappear and never be mentioned in the press
kept quiet and disconnected by a conspiracy of cops and criminals.
they did as asked and they killed and killed
a reckoning of sorts hit the shores of the states
We set off a movement that lost the first battles
that learned from every attack
I was never informed enough about what I could and could not do
I used to test my power by giving orders that I had no idea if they would be taken
or ignored -- like most of my words seemed to be
then something would happen I would write the mayor should resign and he does
a power in the city of Chicago and once the world until I turned on the criminal element
deprived the supremists of their legitimacy
the homophobic of the biblical arguments
the racists reasons to see each other as souls in bodies
these are the revelations I brought
and I was ignored
even suggested once I had Stockholm syndrome because I lived around blacks
and would not enter the race war on the side of the whites
though I had inadvertently ended up on their side
I surely would not be against whites being white
or anyone else for their skin tone or what their ancient relatives have done
all the writing I had done about race and religion and the freedom of both
were taken as lies
I was involved in a psychological war with those who I viewed as my captors
the ones who could watch me in my apartment
with impunity ... making me feel like a pacing cougar in a cage
Once I was set free to express my anger with soldiers my restraint
was still great
stopping attacks on London and New York....... the night they evacuated ny
for a supposed storm
we were about to bomb the shit our of them with the navy
I could not tell what was happening and asked them why they were doing these things
and the answers were inadequate
I wish you had bombed away now
taken the continent and England
I never welcomed their forces as I am said to have
the English were reported as coming to my aide
and since I thought my criticism of monarchies
and especially the queen was some call to war
no... just criticism.... I have no hatred of the English
I would just like see them free of the fake royalty running the island
and would be a better king than any in that gene pool
an unperverted poor boy who hates war though frears no fight
When I saw the dr who episode they did about the shadow war
informing those under deep cover what was happening in the fight
between the states and England... I realized only later I was the villain
English tv came after me as an enemy/I had cost them blood unwittingly
and terrified them more than I meant to
I remember the star of big bang theory on the view
talking about me and saying I did not deserve a second chance with a career
because I had terrified them all
they go along with the corrupt brainwashing and the mkultra shit
in Hollywood and only say what the government will allow them to say
what is good for their career/what their agents want -- what sells.
I saw the episode DEMONS RUN... from a statement that when good men go to war demons run. I am the good guy except in their fictions.
they made fun of the marines I worked with
a homophobic show because of the gays who I helped protect
and normalize to the public and be given more religious freedom, etc...
I had no idea what my soldiers were doing or I would have played this differently
though I was in the middle of a mission in the planning for almost sixty years
with little room to move in a way
others took the money off of me the dancing monkey
others too lived to rid the world of a bit of evil
and just to lower the population as I wrote of comically before awakening
Hidden as always in the most unlikely places
usually
this time all these churches were fighting for my alleigence
and at first I had love for everyone
wanted to forgive everyone
be a friend to everyone
then I was left in poverty and pain and a seeming obscurity
a sentence I did not feel I deserved
I had led people to their death and I cannot dishonor them
by surrendering.
THEIR efforts were not to take over an oil rich country
they fought as wicks ... soon to burn out
yet leaving an explosion in their wake
we pressed on and rose and fell
I took a long time trying to find a side that I could agree with
in the shadow war and finally gave up
decided an enemy of my enemy is my friend
that I could not care what thoughts were in the bodies
who fought beside to aright this country
only their actions mattered
I was said to have went from wanting to be a Jew to being a Nazi
which is a lie they have always wanted to tell
to believe that those who used me were my colleagues
that my objection to the plight of Jews was unfounded
when I helped bring a Jewish mayor into Chicago believing he would
provide them protection
once the Nazi ophra lost her influence on the city when I drove her out of town
accidently at first, then I was told who she worked with and realized
God had taken matters in His own hands, as He often does
and had me do that which I would not if I knew more
that turns out to be the right thing over and over
my trust is God is implicit now
though I do not expect happiness or a happily ever after or even an end of conflict
that does not involve the destruction of the atmosphere on earth
I used to criticize stars just because I figured they would never find out
let alone care what I thought I was -- an obscure blogger,
then I became famous enough that my criticism seemed like slander
to the stars who were used to everyone being nice to them all the time
I meant no harm by what I was writing
and there were entirely different sides to what I said that I never expressed
I wanted to be like the stars I worked with but I was the chosen one
to be the guiding light into the end tines. The promised one
the amount of people who believed this reinforced my belief
various tv shows used the Christ from my writing in their shows
I was never informed of a race war where I was to take sides
between brown and black rather than my only true side -- JUSTICE
as a humbled as hell man of God I know better than to stereotype
Every soul is precious
though the flesh encasing the holy spirit may be weak or act as evil
My soldiers answered the call in my writing and heard my bitching
at the bugs in my apartment
I assumed there was only a few people involved in the plot
to drive me crazy by watching my life and using the events
of the day to day to destroy my credibility
to take away the medals I earned saving this country though God only knows why
I had to understand better what needs to be done and who to target
no wasted deaths or divide and conquer or pretending a vote matters
we are well beyond this and know as much
though their victims were the wrong target
THEY would not have gone after the abstract idea of justice
that was not the way things worked
not the real world
where they are above the law
criminals protected by the intelligence agencies they help
powerful organizations that are part of the fabric of the USA
SOLDIERS I called up
and later went against when I learned how they had used my name
led people to their deaths merely to get rich.
Pirates, I write Pirate if you have to.
Raise the funds for a revolution and to start a new form of government
or force the one we replace the dinosaurs of the old system with visionaries
of a life where all have abundance
This is just as effective at saving the earth
as their genocide
I know we have been directionless
I know I have humiliated you and been ignorant of that which I should have known
I thought the webcam was between me and tv people forgetting everyone else in the argument
I would not have allowed many manifestations of this uprising had I been consulted
the armed forces once wanted me to be a chaplain
I wanted to be a solider though I do not have the body or youth of an intantryman
I was the chaplain regardless
the one many fought for and died deaths of leaping from skyscapers
I want to make every death in this campaign noble
I can't of course
some seem so senseless.... God's plan of using my comedy to take over the world worked
though I was set up for this to happen
then criticized as if I was part of a game where I was in a reality show
oh, hell, no... I was trying to live as normal as possible despite the knowledge that I was being watched and my friends in the media, who report rather secretly on the various groups fighting, have had to join one to get such a job, messages from tv sent into the jail cell where I sat a hostage.. a buffalo jail they call them, because you can wander around the city, though if you leave jail or death.
This was part
of my fighting back
not allowing the peeping tom's to have my life
when someone said TURN UP MORE LIGHTS IN THE BACK
of the living room.... I WENT BALLISTIC...thinking how dare they fucking
come in here and film me without my consent
and not paying me a dime
making my world a hell that no one around me would believe if I tried to explain
though my wife saw it, as they also mimicked her in the media, just a touch
mostly me and what I wrote....
They wanted to pretend I loved being filmed
\telling me that someone actually believe that getting filmed all the time and
getting these killer rating and getting nothing the thieves who stole from .... pretending it was on my orders.....
the office did an episode where he was forced to buy insurance
from a guy who seemed like a mobster and he bought so much
he could afford nothing
so he dropped it
then Tom Perry came out with a song saying the insurance
was killing him..... in his song where he lists what is killing him
which includes eddy murphy and I have never known why...
a long poem to try to explain a topic that needs libraries
not a few pages of prose on an intentionally obscure blog
that my intelligent friends will slip into from around the world
spread my words as they have for the last ten years
since to some few I became a holy man
to others I was Satan himself
The threw me in a hospital again a few weeks after the brainwashing, I have the strangest memories of the place,
some of the patients they brought in were people they wanted me to meet
or more correctly who wanted to meet me
the angel/the one many worshipped as God
or at least a liberator from the fist of the oligarchic slave holders
The had a lot of code names for me over the years
they first was Joker which is why you see that character burn a lot of money
and he said many of the same things I did
had no fear of death
goes out of his way to risk his life almost hoping the enemy takes the shot
martyring him to drive his people into revolt
the problem here with the underground revolutionaries
is that they are misdirected
terrorism has to become a reality
the recruitment must come secretly
and the back stories of their disappearances solid
any of those who survived before and any who wish to live
or let their children live
without being culled by a racist, classicist, set of surprimists with
intentions of massive genocide to every one who does not make the cut
I am the chronicler of the secrets that most pledge not to speak
before they are told the deepest,
the darkest most desperate of the secrets
the CIA claims they release every fifty years
a LIE
proved with Kennedy
they would not release everything,
holding back all the known connections,
to living people with too much power
to ever let anyone go after,
let alone allow them to be called into witness.
Laws protect the spies from ever being used to prosecute someone,
making criminals comfortable around them,
and useful sometimes.
We worked with legal and illegal parts of society,
because that is they way it is and there seems to be no changing that....
if the only way to play the game is to gather allies who will work with you,
who respect that you will be truthful to them;
who forgive all,
I will
and I do not give a dam if I get it back
I will not let my past stop me
I lay in bed at night knowing God has forgiven me
because He is the witness of all that happened and knows I am innocent
that I was kept in the dark too long about the many forces in the states, the world
the vast conspiracy they showed me...
though I do not need reminded of what was done to me personally,
taping my entire life,
embarrassing me by sending out obscene pictures of a private act to my fans
even children...
for a specific reason,
to tell you to leave me alone, that some parts of life are x rated.
By then you were taping in my bedroom,
tested it and got a message back from my side.
FIGHTING some force that tv seemed to like or hate
and I could not understand the mixed messages until they told me
the various channels had different agendas
'
I had no idea how a human could treat me as you did
and I broadcast your sins thinking you would be shown as you are
But you control the press, the music, the...
Hiding the one they call gangsta general x
a deep thinking man
who made decisions in the revolution
I WAS writing about as happening in some future
When I FOUND people would not listen to me
that I what I asked for was denied me
when my intentions were peaceful
I WOULD HAVEE DENIED YOU OF WAR
CUT THE HEAD OFF THE SNAKE
LET THE MONEY BE SPENT ENRICHING ALL
We will give the Oligarchy death by a thousand cuts
or a respectful retreat into powerless luxury of ten million
no more billionaires
wielding that kind of power to buy a governor's office
and holds up the budget so long that he strangles the social services'
their wealth
passed along to the workers of the plants and tech rooms'
the utilities and the...
the bosses salary split among those who do the work.
The workers should rise within this system, with adjustments
God, when they had cameras in my bathroom
I wrote a poem where I warned celebrities about how they should feel
NOW that SAVAGE GRACE walks this planet
I sure as hell did not mean it literally
I was raging against false icons
as one must do/they might mean no harm and change their ways
they might not
or later might
redemption is always there for the asking
unto the last words from a dying man's bleeding lips
The reluctant spy had to learn on the job
make it up as he want along
taking a winding path to the mission objective
getting there in ways that humbled the grandiose mania
that came after the o seven days they drugged me out and tinkered with my mind
I warned you again and again of the explosive nature
of my demise on this planet
A vision from a God and the science of man converge in I praxis
like the end of life described in Revelations
and the polluting and radiating
of the planet
Forecasts if DOOM CONVERGING
The cameras.
The cult built around watching this guy bitch at the bugs in his house,
cringe at the references to him on tv.
all coded enough they told him that they were watching him, a gesture as simple as being too weak to open potato chips,
mimicked by Sam on Supernatural
and the an angel and then the king of hell and then as a Chinese student
who was baffled by being a prophet
I never thanked them, could never thank then enough
I hear all the writers there who used tv to tell me what the media was hiding
I too long thought I was seeing fiction inspired by my life
which was weird in a lot of ways
I remember when I found out how real the violence was
the bloody religious revival I wrote of had been inspired by my words
Supernatural showed a chapter where Castiel the angel tried to
consume all the souls, and bring them to God,
and he released ancient creatures that
wished to kill humanity,,,,
The angel was responsible for this
and swore off violence'
like I HAD in my writing
saying do not fight in my name
having no idea how much blood had already been spilled,
in two revolutionary actions enough to threaten
to fight to the death if there is no other way
to break through the palace walls surrounding the oligarchies
where they can be found living mostly in anonymity
I did not mean to write up a war
my words came true before
and will come true again
this humans have witnessed and cannot deny
I will never settle for slavery and unjust actions that categorize
INDIVIDUALS into groups to be thought of in clichés
I learned of too many deaths perverts slaves
people trying to use my arrival to their benefit
and treating me like shit, like this was something
I had created
No idea this was coming'
Never would have been hard core enough to want
the Bushes burned, as I threatened once in a poem'
I meant this metaphorically
YOU LEFT FIVE AND HALF MILLIONS MEXICANS
STRANDED AT THE BOARDER.
I was told one night.
I would have welcomed them.
I wanted to meet the entire world
and tell them of God my Father
in a language they could understand in manners
all their own''
The voice of Jesus in the mind of a guy who was a kind of mean atheist
until the brainwashing
when the mystical he had given up on existing at all'
suddenly seemed real around him
I was STILL BEWILDERED by the brain washing
My utterly astounded mind... God not only existed
I am the son of God
The bit of the scientist that fits in the minute speck under her microscope
I write of myself metaphorically by my old stage name JOHNNY PAIN'
For I have brought more pain than peace'
more destruction than harvest
Usually these things are easy enough in the lives I lived
Though this time my awakening was violent
unaided by Holy Men on a Monastery or anywhere
I could have found guidance for the new found God status
bestowed on me miraculously
though absolutely proven to me
and in the scripture none the less
I believe the scriptures are notes
I leave to myself about what is important'
immortally true
Mankind messes with some of the bible
though I easily make sure my notes are prominent;
or I merely walk over to a bible
open it
and find the answer... one as obscure as women go barren in the end times
as they did around me
I CAN never fully account for what I am now. I know I am a man
who was prepared to fight a revolution
from a position of a nuclear power
with a heavily populated and important area
living under a button not unlike
the president has an aide carrying
the codes for a nuclear launch\
always with him\
just in case
he cannot imagine a scenario
in the world he knows where any country
would be insane enough to provoke a nuclear war
or any sort of war among the big three
or anyone
excerpt myself
I am born of nightmares
a white man who perhaps was meant to take out a town
the intelligence world, the families and great forces who live by treaties
above the law
in charge of the police in general
I officially became a hostage in the race war
which they thought I wanted
because of two reckless actions I had taken
twice I was misinterpreted by Kevin
the first time he made fun of how much money I had
so I DID the same thing to him only more vile
but I did not mean this as some indictment of blacks
and the letter to Jackson where I ASKED him if we could work together
almost begged him
needing some contact that never came
I did not understand the sides of the game then
or how much blood had been poured over my name
Yes there was a night in war where I told soldiers going into battle
to bath me in blood
that this was the time to act
I did not witness what was happening in the world, though the tv
taken over for this momentous event, the return of Christ, being taken seriously by the world
and some as a stunt, political
I was courted by Obama and Clinton at first. I had said good things about both of them, since I knew nothing much about either of them. I was stunned by their even contacting me. In o seven they talked in the papers, was the head line of a nation, and various articles, BLOG WARS. When during the Obama campaign the web supported him, and blogs did, and then .... blam....
The mania started right when I was told about the contract with fearless radio and to shoot all my short stories into films. I was told they were drugging my water, and I knew they had this on tv, my apartment, somehow... it was the most bizarre of events and I DID NOT KNOW how to utilize this weapon. I did not know who was good and bad, just that I would follow my own morals.
I did not like getting stolen from there in the beginning. I could have done good things with that money, and later, too... but I did not want stolen money or blood money. I have never meant to involve myself in such matters, though when I inadvertently did, I learned in the worst of ways, about their flaws... a scam selling a commodity that broke the wealthy... for a fund to do what? I had not control over any of this, or access to this money, and did not believe I EVER WOULD. I FELT alone after that night I called for a revolution. I was in a mania, being treated like shit, and felt if this was true then we should just fucking fight. I did not expect it to be much more than a poem, but I HAD STIRRED UP a revolutionary spirit worldwide, or was granted the ability to head or be the puppet face for a huge group of people... almost an inherited rite... but also because of the beliefs of the many who believe I AM THE ONE THEY CALL CHRIST. This is true, I AM the Christ. I AM also many other lives, and presently am Scott. I have been revealed, and went from loved to hated by money, most for reasons I did not even understand at the time... Had I known I could unionize the country I would have. Had I known I could have swarmed into office with the Mexicans from the boarder and others... this happened, but I was not aware... and when I became so, I did not know what to do with the alliance.... when I found myself debating with Cheech about how I did NOT know their culture
So they should abandon me. I talked to him from the point of view of the anthropology major, which I was at one point... and explained that preserving a culture, and loving it, and the individual, and etc.. were rights that applied to any culture, but I did not even know why I was being questioned...
If I had just known of the groups. How can I apologize for how disrespectful I have been to many of you, that I regret now. I cannot. Too much blood between us. Story of my life. A man alone on the shores of a river of blood.
I saw a drawing on the net of Christ with a pirate's eye patch
his arms cut off like they did some who helped me revolt the first time
and the cia acted horribly and would have been punished
Bush was firing twenty five cia guys
I did not trust Bush so I objected
The news than reported I had went right wing
LOOK WHO IS RIGHT WING??
I did not mean to be far right.
I acted out of hate for Bush
this won me friends in the CIA and for awhile
I wanted to be saved by someone
anyone
taken out of this Buffalo Jail
a creature who questioned the destruction
of a world
after watching
a soul traveler
in a place without time
Just after the brainwashing in 07
which was given to me before I got a radio show
and had the personality of Christ inserted
Then the brainwashed boy went awry
kept his morals despite how much money you threw at him
burned it in stacks to tell you there was no amount of money
that would seem satisfactory to sell out my soul
to end up fighting on the wrong side in the shadow war
You came to me expecting me to be a leader of groups
who expected me to fight for reasons other than to protect the weak
for money and power and rising up
Families, intelligence agencies, governments, military
divided by the most base barriers
salt from another time NOW RANCID and tossed aside
INTELLIGENCE SHOWED ME A WORLD
GENOCIDAL
who were racially divided
genocidE
divided over homophobia, and xenophobic reactions to other races
the stupidly easy answer is taken by most
Their leaders will take care of them
When the very leaders they elect on the promises of hypno words
refined by linguists to fire certain unconscious reactions in the listeners
to mistake lies for truths
a politicians performance
always
I have learned
except in their secret societies
which have claimed me though I have never claimed them
they have been behind me at times and I pray they still are
I wish to have their networks and etcetera if it is purged of evil intent
I have never heard a proper word on this topic that I trusted
So what if they think they are wise men manipulating world events
while others try to subvert them at times
they are lead by God only knows who and perhaps they are of one mind
perhaps of many
I have said that I do not care who people worship
and this is true
to be so fully mistaken as to worship Satan is odd to me
though this would hardly be the first time the one who has come
and defeated your village and rained hells fire down on your lives
is offered the lives of the survivors, to walk with such a powerful tribe
to be safe
I told the stories of past lives while I preached to the television, believing that I was telling the Christian truth at times, amazed by the memories.... you told me of the deaths and I in the end danced and told you that this was what scared my enemies the most about my tribe, how we prepared for battle with pounding drums and screams of anger as we danced our complex dances, training our muscles and movement, preparing our soldiers... I told some tale about dancing until my feet were bleeding, the bone showing... I cannot remember now why we were dancing, I assume to prepare for war... or to mourn... or ... I can imagine so many campfires, the medicine man usually so I knew what to use to get very stoned and look into the next world, and bear the emotions of a human life. There is always a drug, all over this world, growing wild. Almost every animal in the wild has one.
The stories must have included cannibalism... and while I must stay away from a lot more than I can say on this topic, I saw the movie end of days and they had a character who masturbated where ever he wanted, and this masturbation footage from my house was being used to slander me, the leader of a group of cannibals who were not going to heaven. I was pretty pissed by this movie as I watched it by the way they showed me, though the act of masturbating cost lives, and split allies apart and all kinds of hell was released when one group, a hug one, turned against me. I who would never harm a child in any way am accused of what I consider among the worst sins a human being can do. To be accused of such acts brings on a steely resolve to go after the speaker and make them eat their words, as well as a few inches of lead.
I HAD to learn everything that happened from my critics. I never would have known what was going on if I had not become an object of ridicule. I could not be made the golden boy of something I knew nothing about and come to find out would not entirely support, I am grateful to the ones who protected my name, and I am grateful for the ones who criticized me. I learned from both, though different things from different people. When the blacks first came on, after I heard of the killings, I was worried all these people were dead, like Colbert and Stewart, especially..... I mean, these were psychotic fucks.... but that wore off when my empathy was taken for weakness. That caused me to lash out, prove I do not take no shit and I did.... to a degree. Though I was trying not to get people killed at that point.
God what an idiot I must have seemed to some when I wrote tell people I am against violence when they have been fighting in the fields for years, etc.... lost a lot in the war I started.... the answered a call and I ran into a world where I was not allowed to back it up. I should and still could bring peace to this world, but it will take using methods to stop the production of arms world wide. There would be ways to make this business too dangerous for anyone to go to work. There may be a time when such avenues are followed... I hope other, more precise strikes, with less civilians involed will work.
I heard music go from religious to the top song, by an Irish band, exposing atheism and that the only heaven was between his girlfriends legs. No co incidence there. The Irish felt I had betrayed them, when in actuality I knew too little about what they were doing to even know I was betraying them... though we feel quite differently, those I worked with, some.... will Ferrell went thru hell I am sure representing me in the press at times. Once going on some late night show naked on a horse surrounded by strippers, and they had a Mexican guy was yelling angrily that he could not work with someone like this... I had no idea where they were getting these notions about me at the time, the idea that I was I was viewed as a stripper had never occurred to me.
The idea that I was being watched and worshipped and all that shit had not entered my mind. My life was boring and stressful and hellish and nothing I wanted strangers watching. I was mean and threatening because I felt threatened, and I answer fire with fire. Treat me like shit expect a fight, or at last half as eloquent bitching.
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until your society is JUST
THERE SHOULD BE NO PEACE
appeasement is what the masses offer the elite
YOU CAN REPRESS THE NOTION
though know there must be some among you
who find fronts to fight the enemy
THE ENEMY IS THE PRESENT CORPORATE AND WALL STREET ENRICHING
RULERS
FROM THE WHITE HOUSE TO THE BOARDROOMS
there is nothing worse than doing nothing
as the masses
are robbed
by the oligarchy
as they fight over this politician or that
when they all do the same thing,
war,
and enrich
the richest of rich
the vampires of the military industrial complex
TRADE THE BLOOD OF THE YOUNG
FOR BIG STACKS OF GREEN ONES
slave keepers
CHAINING those around them
with two hundred million dollar bonuses...
EVERY DAY YOU APPEASE THE ENEMY
THE MORE YOU BECOME GERMANS
IGNORING THE FIGHT AGAINST THE NAZI'S
you become the ones
who went along oblivious of the atrocities of their government
I have seen them in my work,
college girls beaten to death on a golf course here in town
because they attended a peace march
to stop the protests of 07 they killed all the leaders or drove them underground
history shows they ended... just not how it was done
cutting off arms of computer hackers who helped the cause
and all the secrets that will never enter the popular lexicon
with enough context
to make sense to those who are not involved
THE PEACE MOVEMENT
I wanted to start became the praising of soldiers
who I wanted to bring home with my efforts
became after the three forgotten days
of CLASSIC BRAINWASHING AND ending up tossed in a psych ward
something wrong that was easily recognized by my friends
off
I felt like one does after a brain washing
the sensation that I did not know who I was
but I was not the person who I THOUTH I WAS
AND I FOUND ANOTHER VOICE
INSIDE OF ME... CHRIST
in my poetry more than my life
those behind the project
figured I would play the role of a deity
for pleasure and prophet
I felt like they tried to make a fake CHRIST and GOD
always ironic
had placed the real thing at the head of their made up religion
to sabotage their plans to use the son as an EVIL ICON
AS WAS DONE
MUCH as I begged from the beginning that you
did NOT make a fake idol out of me
yet you did
you took a gift from God who brought peace and love to the planet
and tried to force him onto a cross
to take away all your sins
I did not know enough to lead the groups I had found under the rocks
and boulders where I found the true leaders of the world
hiding from the light of day/knowing that if the world knew they existed
how deadly to us all
they would be squashed under black boots in a day
their guards would turn on them
became a vanguard of the revolution
as has happened before when militaries have switched leaders
I fought in a war where we sent armed soldiers to do atrocities of which no human
may ever speak of again because of loyalty oath and pure shame and the way there are no heroes
in our war
there are no winners or losers
only survivors of the latest battle
none of the sides have a clear picture how to unite under one leader
split apart they are useless in solving the worlds problems
a one world order would be controlled by the heartless psychopaths of politics
at this point and they cannot be trusted with the power they have
need less ... not more
When they declared me Christ --
when the voice of the deity was the only true one I knew anymore
I was changed irreparably from the stoner comedy writer who was at best agnostic
at worst out right hateful of religion
mystical things were to happen to me
making believers of those watching me,
expecting the magical to happen to me
after I am told I began to grow wings at five
and they did keep me in the hospital for a year at five
when I had reoccurring dreams over and over of flying
and driving... I ended up a professional driver
in the hospital they treated me in ways my disease is not treated by giving me radiation
and I have these two scars
that are no where near my problem at the bottom of my spine\
explained away as tumors\
they did not want me to know what happened
Either they were setting me up for the mission or the miraculous was happening
is still hard for me tell
so many died believing I am a savior that to denounce myself
or say that I never believed what I do
will never happen
john cusack came on the radio as the religion began to grow strong around me
and violent
said that everyone had to admit
at least on camera
that they were not God's
They were filming me and spying on me still
Driving me crazy
I used to do things before the camera hoping to keep them too afraid to attack me
warn them of the destruction I would reign down on them
with no hesitation
should the mission
require
a reminder on these shores of the hell of war/the hell of being a refugee
bringing peace to the USA will require fighting those who THINK THEY NEED WAR
for the economy, or just their bonuses and the resultant political contributions
that would go to one or the other politician -- whichever one will play ball;
the sum of modern politics in a way
the sum of life in a way
play ball or forget about being in the game at all
I fought his and still do
rather die standing than on my knees
They were using operation blue beam
a Christ who takes over the world with a new way of living
a courage where death became no deterrent to a mission
I set off events I could not have imagined
as those around me refused to send me humans who could communicate
with me face to face
I wanted that so bad
I wrote also I did not want that
and none of them would tell me of the mayhem I was causing
as words of Christ were taken fundamentally
stories as scripture and secret orders
I was used
they wanted you and I to believe we could change this world
instead we learned that the real powers refuse to be challenged
I confused people
thinking they were here to please God walking the planet
when I am here to please them... to be a servant, not served
I heard the songs about my arrival
stirring my heart as they referred
to my preaching
mourning as they told me they had picked up swords
at times I would not have had them do...
Though I forgive them and pray they live long enough
to feel redeemed for their actions
Long into the war, when they understood I HAD no idea
the extent of the relevance of my words to so many
I felt I was being put in some kind of hell
in poverty
unable to become a paid writer
though my fame is great
because they hate me for deaths blamed on Christ Himself
the one who fought at every turn
to explain the Jewish Psalms was a warriors book
the God of War
I can join no religion
though I am sure I would find some form
of Jewish that fit my beliefs
I would never hate someone for their religion
the individual's actions is more important than any relationship to race,
religion, gender . . .
and the only scientifically acceptable means of viewing a person,
let alone ethically.
Few like to be stereotyped with others of their religion or race,
except during periods of war, when the enemy is always objectified; friendly neighbors suddenly go to war when their religion demands'
a travesty before science and God.
The elite understands this enough to start a culling process from all races
others want to eliminate other races almost entirely
though they are too sophisticated to believe mere race or geography of birth
means nearly as much as bloodlines and intelligence and looks
viable seeds for a better humanity
without all the mere feeders as they cause the great masses
I worked on the plans to kill seven billion people
I had a lot of kills by then... mass graves all over the states
people who would disappear and never be mentioned in the press
kept quiet and disconnected by a conspiracy of cops and criminals.
they did as asked and they killed and killed
a reckoning of sorts hit the shores of the states
We set off a movement that lost the first battles
that learned from every attack
I was never informed enough about what I could and could not do
I used to test my power by giving orders that I had no idea if they would be taken
or ignored -- like most of my words seemed to be
then something would happen I would write the mayor should resign and he does
a power in the city of Chicago and once the world until I turned on the criminal element
deprived the supremists of their legitimacy
the homophobic of the biblical arguments
the racists reasons to see each other as souls in bodies
these are the revelations I brought
and I was ignored
even suggested once I had Stockholm syndrome because I lived around blacks
and would not enter the race war on the side of the whites
though I had inadvertently ended up on their side
I surely would not be against whites being white
or anyone else for their skin tone or what their ancient relatives have done
all the writing I had done about race and religion and the freedom of both
were taken as lies
I was involved in a psychological war with those who I viewed as my captors
the ones who could watch me in my apartment
with impunity ... making me feel like a pacing cougar in a cage
Once I was set free to express my anger with soldiers my restraint
was still great
stopping attacks on London and New York....... the night they evacuated ny
for a supposed storm
we were about to bomb the shit our of them with the navy
I could not tell what was happening and asked them why they were doing these things
and the answers were inadequate
I wish you had bombed away now
taken the continent and England
I never welcomed their forces as I am said to have
the English were reported as coming to my aide
and since I thought my criticism of monarchies
and especially the queen was some call to war
no... just criticism.... I have no hatred of the English
I would just like see them free of the fake royalty running the island
and would be a better king than any in that gene pool
an unperverted poor boy who hates war though frears no fight
When I saw the dr who episode they did about the shadow war
informing those under deep cover what was happening in the fight
between the states and England... I realized only later I was the villain
English tv came after me as an enemy/I had cost them blood unwittingly
and terrified them more than I meant to
I remember the star of big bang theory on the view
talking about me and saying I did not deserve a second chance with a career
because I had terrified them all
they go along with the corrupt brainwashing and the mkultra shit
in Hollywood and only say what the government will allow them to say
what is good for their career/what their agents want -- what sells.
I saw the episode DEMONS RUN... from a statement that when good men go to war demons run. I am the good guy except in their fictions.
they made fun of the marines I worked with
a homophobic show because of the gays who I helped protect
and normalize to the public and be given more religious freedom, etc...
I had no idea what my soldiers were doing or I would have played this differently
though I was in the middle of a mission in the planning for almost sixty years
with little room to move in a way
others took the money off of me the dancing monkey
others too lived to rid the world of a bit of evil
and just to lower the population as I wrote of comically before awakening
Hidden as always in the most unlikely places
usually
this time all these churches were fighting for my alleigence
and at first I had love for everyone
wanted to forgive everyone
be a friend to everyone
then I was left in poverty and pain and a seeming obscurity
a sentence I did not feel I deserved
I had led people to their death and I cannot dishonor them
by surrendering.
THEIR efforts were not to take over an oil rich country
they fought as wicks ... soon to burn out
yet leaving an explosion in their wake
we pressed on and rose and fell
I took a long time trying to find a side that I could agree with
in the shadow war and finally gave up
decided an enemy of my enemy is my friend
that I could not care what thoughts were in the bodies
who fought beside to aright this country
only their actions mattered
I was said to have went from wanting to be a Jew to being a Nazi
which is a lie they have always wanted to tell
to believe that those who used me were my colleagues
that my objection to the plight of Jews was unfounded
when I helped bring a Jewish mayor into Chicago believing he would
provide them protection
once the Nazi ophra lost her influence on the city when I drove her out of town
accidently at first, then I was told who she worked with and realized
God had taken matters in His own hands, as He often does
and had me do that which I would not if I knew more
that turns out to be the right thing over and over
my trust is God is implicit now
though I do not expect happiness or a happily ever after or even an end of conflict
that does not involve the destruction of the atmosphere on earth
I used to criticize stars just because I figured they would never find out
let alone care what I thought I was -- an obscure blogger,
then I became famous enough that my criticism seemed like slander
to the stars who were used to everyone being nice to them all the time
I meant no harm by what I was writing
and there were entirely different sides to what I said that I never expressed
I wanted to be like the stars I worked with but I was the chosen one
to be the guiding light into the end tines. The promised one
the amount of people who believed this reinforced my belief
various tv shows used the Christ from my writing in their shows
I was never informed of a race war where I was to take sides
between brown and black rather than my only true side -- JUSTICE
as a humbled as hell man of God I know better than to stereotype
Every soul is precious
though the flesh encasing the holy spirit may be weak or act as evil
My soldiers answered the call in my writing and heard my bitching
at the bugs in my apartment
I assumed there was only a few people involved in the plot
to drive me crazy by watching my life and using the events
of the day to day to destroy my credibility
to take away the medals I earned saving this country though God only knows why
I had to understand better what needs to be done and who to target
no wasted deaths or divide and conquer or pretending a vote matters
we are well beyond this and know as much
though their victims were the wrong target
THEY would not have gone after the abstract idea of justice
that was not the way things worked
not the real world
where they are above the law
criminals protected by the intelligence agencies they help
powerful organizations that are part of the fabric of the USA
SOLDIERS I called up
and later went against when I learned how they had used my name
led people to their deaths merely to get rich.
Pirates, I write Pirate if you have to.
Raise the funds for a revolution and to start a new form of government
or force the one we replace the dinosaurs of the old system with visionaries
of a life where all have abundance
This is just as effective at saving the earth
as their genocide
I know we have been directionless
I know I have humiliated you and been ignorant of that which I should have known
I thought the webcam was between me and tv people forgetting everyone else in the argument
I would not have allowed many manifestations of this uprising had I been consulted
the armed forces once wanted me to be a chaplain
I wanted to be a solider though I do not have the body or youth of an intantryman
I was the chaplain regardless
the one many fought for and died deaths of leaping from skyscapers
I want to make every death in this campaign noble
I can't of course
some seem so senseless.... God's plan of using my comedy to take over the world worked
though I was set up for this to happen
then criticized as if I was part of a game where I was in a reality show
oh, hell, no... I was trying to live as normal as possible despite the knowledge that I was being watched and my friends in the media, who report rather secretly on the various groups fighting, have had to join one to get such a job, messages from tv sent into the jail cell where I sat a hostage.. a buffalo jail they call them, because you can wander around the city, though if you leave jail or death.
This was part
of my fighting back
not allowing the peeping tom's to have my life
when someone said TURN UP MORE LIGHTS IN THE BACK
of the living room.... I WENT BALLISTIC...thinking how dare they fucking
come in here and film me without my consent
and not paying me a dime
making my world a hell that no one around me would believe if I tried to explain
though my wife saw it, as they also mimicked her in the media, just a touch
mostly me and what I wrote....
They wanted to pretend I loved being filmed
\telling me that someone actually believe that getting filmed all the time and
getting these killer rating and getting nothing the thieves who stole from .... pretending it was on my orders.....
the office did an episode where he was forced to buy insurance
from a guy who seemed like a mobster and he bought so much
he could afford nothing
so he dropped it
then Tom Perry came out with a song saying the insurance
was killing him..... in his song where he lists what is killing him
which includes eddy murphy and I have never known why...
a long poem to try to explain a topic that needs libraries
not a few pages of prose on an intentionally obscure blog
that my intelligent friends will slip into from around the world
spread my words as they have for the last ten years
since to some few I became a holy man
to others I was Satan himself
The threw me in a hospital again a few weeks after the brainwashing, I have the strangest memories of the place,
some of the patients they brought in were people they wanted me to meet
or more correctly who wanted to meet me
the angel/the one many worshipped as God
or at least a liberator from the fist of the oligarchic slave holders
The had a lot of code names for me over the years
they first was Joker which is why you see that character burn a lot of money
and he said many of the same things I did
had no fear of death
goes out of his way to risk his life almost hoping the enemy takes the shot
martyring him to drive his people into revolt
the problem here with the underground revolutionaries
is that they are misdirected
terrorism has to become a reality
the recruitment must come secretly
and the back stories of their disappearances solid
any of those who survived before and any who wish to live
or let their children live
without being culled by a racist, classicist, set of surprimists with
intentions of massive genocide to every one who does not make the cut
I am the chronicler of the secrets that most pledge not to speak
before they are told the deepest,
the darkest most desperate of the secrets
the CIA claims they release every fifty years
a LIE
proved with Kennedy
they would not release everything,
holding back all the known connections,
to living people with too much power
to ever let anyone go after,
let alone allow them to be called into witness.
Laws protect the spies from ever being used to prosecute someone,
making criminals comfortable around them,
and useful sometimes.
We worked with legal and illegal parts of society,
because that is they way it is and there seems to be no changing that....
if the only way to play the game is to gather allies who will work with you,
who respect that you will be truthful to them;
who forgive all,
I will
and I do not give a dam if I get it back
I will not let my past stop me
I lay in bed at night knowing God has forgiven me
because He is the witness of all that happened and knows I am innocent
that I was kept in the dark too long about the many forces in the states, the world
the vast conspiracy they showed me...
though I do not need reminded of what was done to me personally,
taping my entire life,
embarrassing me by sending out obscene pictures of a private act to my fans
even children...
for a specific reason,
to tell you to leave me alone, that some parts of life are x rated.
By then you were taping in my bedroom,
tested it and got a message back from my side.
FIGHTING some force that tv seemed to like or hate
and I could not understand the mixed messages until they told me
the various channels had different agendas
'
I had no idea how a human could treat me as you did
and I broadcast your sins thinking you would be shown as you are
But you control the press, the music, the...
Hiding the one they call gangsta general x
a deep thinking man
who made decisions in the revolution
I WAS writing about as happening in some future
When I FOUND people would not listen to me
that I what I asked for was denied me
when my intentions were peaceful
I WOULD HAVEE DENIED YOU OF WAR
CUT THE HEAD OFF THE SNAKE
LET THE MONEY BE SPENT ENRICHING ALL
We will give the Oligarchy death by a thousand cuts
or a respectful retreat into powerless luxury of ten million
no more billionaires
wielding that kind of power to buy a governor's office
and holds up the budget so long that he strangles the social services'
their wealth
passed along to the workers of the plants and tech rooms'
the utilities and the...
the bosses salary split among those who do the work.
The workers should rise within this system, with adjustments
God, when they had cameras in my bathroom
I wrote a poem where I warned celebrities about how they should feel
NOW that SAVAGE GRACE walks this planet
I sure as hell did not mean it literally
I was raging against false icons
as one must do/they might mean no harm and change their ways
they might not
or later might
redemption is always there for the asking
unto the last words from a dying man's bleeding lips
The reluctant spy had to learn on the job
make it up as he want along
taking a winding path to the mission objective
getting there in ways that humbled the grandiose mania
that came after the o seven days they drugged me out and tinkered with my mind
I warned you again and again of the explosive nature
of my demise on this planet
A vision from a God and the science of man converge in I praxis
like the end of life described in Revelations
and the polluting and radiating
of the planet
Forecasts if DOOM CONVERGING
The cameras.
The cult built around watching this guy bitch at the bugs in his house,
cringe at the references to him on tv.
all coded enough they told him that they were watching him, a gesture as simple as being too weak to open potato chips,
mimicked by Sam on Supernatural
and the an angel and then the king of hell and then as a Chinese student
who was baffled by being a prophet
I never thanked them, could never thank then enough
I hear all the writers there who used tv to tell me what the media was hiding
I too long thought I was seeing fiction inspired by my life
which was weird in a lot of ways
I remember when I found out how real the violence was
the bloody religious revival I wrote of had been inspired by my words
Supernatural showed a chapter where Castiel the angel tried to
consume all the souls, and bring them to God,
and he released ancient creatures that
wished to kill humanity,,,,
The angel was responsible for this
and swore off violence'
like I HAD in my writing
saying do not fight in my name
having no idea how much blood had already been spilled,
in two revolutionary actions enough to threaten
to fight to the death if there is no other way
to break through the palace walls surrounding the oligarchies
where they can be found living mostly in anonymity
I did not mean to write up a war
my words came true before
and will come true again
this humans have witnessed and cannot deny
I will never settle for slavery and unjust actions that categorize
INDIVIDUALS into groups to be thought of in clichés
I learned of too many deaths perverts slaves
people trying to use my arrival to their benefit
and treating me like shit, like this was something
I had created
No idea this was coming'
Never would have been hard core enough to want
the Bushes burned, as I threatened once in a poem'
I meant this metaphorically
YOU LEFT FIVE AND HALF MILLIONS MEXICANS
STRANDED AT THE BOARDER.
I was told one night.
I would have welcomed them.
I wanted to meet the entire world
and tell them of God my Father
in a language they could understand in manners
all their own''
The voice of Jesus in the mind of a guy who was a kind of mean atheist
until the brainwashing
when the mystical he had given up on existing at all'
suddenly seemed real around him
I was STILL BEWILDERED by the brain washing
My utterly astounded mind... God not only existed
I am the son of God
The bit of the scientist that fits in the minute speck under her microscope
I write of myself metaphorically by my old stage name JOHNNY PAIN'
For I have brought more pain than peace'
more destruction than harvest
Usually these things are easy enough in the lives I lived
Though this time my awakening was violent
unaided by Holy Men on a Monastery or anywhere
I could have found guidance for the new found God status
bestowed on me miraculously
though absolutely proven to me
and in the scripture none the less
I believe the scriptures are notes
I leave to myself about what is important'
immortally true
Mankind messes with some of the bible
though I easily make sure my notes are prominent;
or I merely walk over to a bible
open it
and find the answer... one as obscure as women go barren in the end times
as they did around me
I CAN never fully account for what I am now. I know I am a man
who was prepared to fight a revolution
from a position of a nuclear power
with a heavily populated and important area
living under a button not unlike
the president has an aide carrying
the codes for a nuclear launch\
always with him\
just in case
he cannot imagine a scenario
in the world he knows where any country
would be insane enough to provoke a nuclear war
or any sort of war among the big three
or anyone
excerpt myself
I am born of nightmares
a white man who perhaps was meant to take out a town
the intelligence world, the families and great forces who live by treaties
above the law
in charge of the police in general
I officially became a hostage in the race war
which they thought I wanted
because of two reckless actions I had taken
twice I was misinterpreted by Kevin
the first time he made fun of how much money I had
so I DID the same thing to him only more vile
but I did not mean this as some indictment of blacks
and the letter to Jackson where I ASKED him if we could work together
almost begged him
needing some contact that never came
I did not understand the sides of the game then
or how much blood had been poured over my name
Yes there was a night in war where I told soldiers going into battle
to bath me in blood
that this was the time to act
I did not witness what was happening in the world, though the tv
taken over for this momentous event, the return of Christ, being taken seriously by the world
and some as a stunt, political
I was courted by Obama and Clinton at first. I had said good things about both of them, since I knew nothing much about either of them. I was stunned by their even contacting me. In o seven they talked in the papers, was the head line of a nation, and various articles, BLOG WARS. When during the Obama campaign the web supported him, and blogs did, and then .... blam....
The mania started right when I was told about the contract with fearless radio and to shoot all my short stories into films. I was told they were drugging my water, and I knew they had this on tv, my apartment, somehow... it was the most bizarre of events and I DID NOT KNOW how to utilize this weapon. I did not know who was good and bad, just that I would follow my own morals.
I did not like getting stolen from there in the beginning. I could have done good things with that money, and later, too... but I did not want stolen money or blood money. I have never meant to involve myself in such matters, though when I inadvertently did, I learned in the worst of ways, about their flaws... a scam selling a commodity that broke the wealthy... for a fund to do what? I had not control over any of this, or access to this money, and did not believe I EVER WOULD. I FELT alone after that night I called for a revolution. I was in a mania, being treated like shit, and felt if this was true then we should just fucking fight. I did not expect it to be much more than a poem, but I HAD STIRRED UP a revolutionary spirit worldwide, or was granted the ability to head or be the puppet face for a huge group of people... almost an inherited rite... but also because of the beliefs of the many who believe I AM THE ONE THEY CALL CHRIST. This is true, I AM the Christ. I AM also many other lives, and presently am Scott. I have been revealed, and went from loved to hated by money, most for reasons I did not even understand at the time... Had I known I could unionize the country I would have. Had I known I could have swarmed into office with the Mexicans from the boarder and others... this happened, but I was not aware... and when I became so, I did not know what to do with the alliance.... when I found myself debating with Cheech about how I did NOT know their culture
So they should abandon me. I talked to him from the point of view of the anthropology major, which I was at one point... and explained that preserving a culture, and loving it, and the individual, and etc.. were rights that applied to any culture, but I did not even know why I was being questioned...
If I had just known of the groups. How can I apologize for how disrespectful I have been to many of you, that I regret now. I cannot. Too much blood between us. Story of my life. A man alone on the shores of a river of blood.
I saw a drawing on the net of Christ with a pirate's eye patch
his arms cut off like they did some who helped me revolt the first time
and the cia acted horribly and would have been punished
Bush was firing twenty five cia guys
I did not trust Bush so I objected
The news than reported I had went right wing
LOOK WHO IS RIGHT WING??
I did not mean to be far right.
I acted out of hate for Bush
this won me friends in the CIA and for awhile
I wanted to be saved by someone
anyone
taken out of this Buffalo Jail
a creature who questioned the destruction
of a world
after watching
a soul traveler
in a place without time
Just after the brainwashing in 07
which was given to me before I got a radio show
and had the personality of Christ inserted
Then the brainwashed boy went awry
kept his morals despite how much money you threw at him
burned it in stacks to tell you there was no amount of money
that would seem satisfactory to sell out my soul
to end up fighting on the wrong side in the shadow war
You came to me expecting me to be a leader of groups
who expected me to fight for reasons other than to protect the weak
for money and power and rising up
Families, intelligence agencies, governments, military
divided by the most base barriers
salt from another time NOW RANCID and tossed aside
INTELLIGENCE SHOWED ME A WORLD
GENOCIDAL
who were racially divided
genocidE
divided over homophobia, and xenophobic reactions to other races
the stupidly easy answer is taken by most
Their leaders will take care of them
When the very leaders they elect on the promises of hypno words
refined by linguists to fire certain unconscious reactions in the listeners
to mistake lies for truths
a politicians performance
always
I have learned
except in their secret societies
which have claimed me though I have never claimed them
they have been behind me at times and I pray they still are
I wish to have their networks and etcetera if it is purged of evil intent
I have never heard a proper word on this topic that I trusted
So what if they think they are wise men manipulating world events
while others try to subvert them at times
they are lead by God only knows who and perhaps they are of one mind
perhaps of many
I have said that I do not care who people worship
and this is true
to be so fully mistaken as to worship Satan is odd to me
though this would hardly be the first time the one who has come
and defeated your village and rained hells fire down on your lives
is offered the lives of the survivors, to walk with such a powerful tribe
to be safe
I told the stories of past lives while I preached to the television, believing that I was telling the Christian truth at times, amazed by the memories.... you told me of the deaths and I in the end danced and told you that this was what scared my enemies the most about my tribe, how we prepared for battle with pounding drums and screams of anger as we danced our complex dances, training our muscles and movement, preparing our soldiers... I told some tale about dancing until my feet were bleeding, the bone showing... I cannot remember now why we were dancing, I assume to prepare for war... or to mourn... or ... I can imagine so many campfires, the medicine man usually so I knew what to use to get very stoned and look into the next world, and bear the emotions of a human life. There is always a drug, all over this world, growing wild. Almost every animal in the wild has one.
The stories must have included cannibalism... and while I must stay away from a lot more than I can say on this topic, I saw the movie end of days and they had a character who masturbated where ever he wanted, and this masturbation footage from my house was being used to slander me, the leader of a group of cannibals who were not going to heaven. I was pretty pissed by this movie as I watched it by the way they showed me, though the act of masturbating cost lives, and split allies apart and all kinds of hell was released when one group, a hug one, turned against me. I who would never harm a child in any way am accused of what I consider among the worst sins a human being can do. To be accused of such acts brings on a steely resolve to go after the speaker and make them eat their words, as well as a few inches of lead.
I HAD to learn everything that happened from my critics. I never would have known what was going on if I had not become an object of ridicule. I could not be made the golden boy of something I knew nothing about and come to find out would not entirely support, I am grateful to the ones who protected my name, and I am grateful for the ones who criticized me. I learned from both, though different things from different people. When the blacks first came on, after I heard of the killings, I was worried all these people were dead, like Colbert and Stewart, especially..... I mean, these were psychotic fucks.... but that wore off when my empathy was taken for weakness. That caused me to lash out, prove I do not take no shit and I did.... to a degree. Though I was trying not to get people killed at that point.
God what an idiot I must have seemed to some when I wrote tell people I am against violence when they have been fighting in the fields for years, etc.... lost a lot in the war I started.... the answered a call and I ran into a world where I was not allowed to back it up. I should and still could bring peace to this world, but it will take using methods to stop the production of arms world wide. There would be ways to make this business too dangerous for anyone to go to work. There may be a time when such avenues are followed... I hope other, more precise strikes, with less civilians involed will work.
I heard music go from religious to the top song, by an Irish band, exposing atheism and that the only heaven was between his girlfriends legs. No co incidence there. The Irish felt I had betrayed them, when in actuality I knew too little about what they were doing to even know I was betraying them... though we feel quite differently, those I worked with, some.... will Ferrell went thru hell I am sure representing me in the press at times. Once going on some late night show naked on a horse surrounded by strippers, and they had a Mexican guy was yelling angrily that he could not work with someone like this... I had no idea where they were getting these notions about me at the time, the idea that I was I was viewed as a stripper had never occurred to me.
The idea that I was being watched and worshipped and all that shit had not entered my mind. My life was boring and stressful and hellish and nothing I wanted strangers watching. I was mean and threatening because I felt threatened, and I answer fire with fire. Treat me like shit expect a fight, or at last half as eloquent bitching.
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